In The Stars

Post 10 of 10 of LoveYourzStory’s Jhené Aiko Series. Inspired by “Promises.”

I’m deep in my Jhené Era. She’s def the top artist I’ve been listening to on repeat for at least the last 6 months. This series will be a showcase of how her music has inspired me throughout this journey – the journey back to self✨️

Blue skies. Plants. Birds. Butterflies.

The peaceful sound of waterfalls in the distance.

You’re surrounded by light and life.

Your wrinkle lines are visible as you start to smile.

I’m looking up at you, in awe that I have the privilege to meet with you in this dimension.

There are no words being shared, I start to wonder if you’re even aware that I’m here…

But I don’t care, I’m seeing you in your new element.

Time moves slowly here, there’s absolutely no rush.

Birds land on your shoulders, butterflies surround you, you’re intrigued by the plants.

I can watch you enjoy this present moment forever – And it seems like forever.

But then the sound rings…

How long has it been? … I know it’s time.

My stomach drops, my throat tightens up, my eyes swell with tears.

I hate goodbyes.

“Tatay, I have to go,” I tell you crying. “I won’t get to see you anymore.”

You brush it off and continue doing what you’re doing, all with a smile on your face.

I explain the severity of what’s happening – this is potentially goodbye forever.

We both have to go back, who knows if there will be another time – how can you be so calm?

“But look where I am, I’m so happy. It’s not goodbye, I’m everywhere.”

And I believe that whole heartedly, with every fiber of my being.

I take off the blind fold, I’m weeping.

How lucky was I to have seen a glimpse of your world.

I am reminded through constant signs, alignments, and blessings – you’re everywhere.

I understand now and truly believe it – there is no end.

Internal Sunshine

Post 9 of 10 of LoveYourzStory’s Jhené Aiko Series. Inspired by “Eternal Sunshine.”

I’m deep in my Jhené Era. She’s def the top artist I’ve been listening to on repeat for at least the last 6 months. This series will be a showcase of how her music has inspired me throughout this journey – the journey back to self✨️

I am my own weather woman – no one can tell me my emotional forecast.

When it rains, I let it pour. Fuck it, I don’t want the umbrella.

I don’t avoid the rain anymore, I want to feel that shit.

But it’s crucial to remember to pivot after it’s felt and processed.

I refuse to linger in gray clouds longer than I have to.

I control my own weather.

I command my thoughts and emotions, not vice versa.

Circumstances remained basically the same, but a shift in mindset brought me to constant clear skies.

I choose whether I want to be the thunder, blue skies, rain, desert heat, tornado, rainbow, or all the above…

So why not choose to be the sunshine?

Realizing that I am the sun, moon, and stars all on my own brought me the peace I needed.

No outside source is required for my happiness.

How can you dim a light that comes from within?

All In

Post 8 of 10 of LoveYourzStory’s Jhené Aiko Series. Inspired by “While We’re Young.”

I’m deep in my Jhené Era. She’s def the top artist I’ve been listening to on repeat for at least the last 6 months. This series will be a showcase of how her music has inspired me throughout this journey – the journey back to self✨️

“Wait and be patient,” I would tell myself.

Once upon a time, this was my manifest song.

This energy, or nothing at all.

Just when you think you’ve witnessed it all…

Don’t they say that’s how it always happens?

Yes – some hesitation, some fears initially.

But eventually, the green light goes off.

No rules, no second thoughts.

All gas, no breaks.

No forcing, no games.

Isn’t it crazy how it all just aligns?

No doubts, no holding back.

This is how it should be – all in.

Little Miss Self-Sabotage

Post 7 of 10 of LoveYourzStory’s Jhené Aiko Series. Inspired by “Define Me.”

I’m deep in my Jhené Era. She’s def the top artist I’ve been listening to on repeat for at least the last 6 months. This series will be a showcase of how her music has inspired me throughout this journey – the journey back to self✨️

Note to self –

There will come a day where you meet the reason why you never settled.

When that day comes, I pray you have the self-awareness to realize when you’re starting to run.

I pray you have the discernment to know the difference between a gut feeling and the natural instinct to self-sabotage when things are great.

I hurt a little inside knowing that you are weary of good things because it is so foreign to you.

But embrace what is being presented to you – don’t run from things that seem too good to be true.

You deserve the world, let the world give it to you.

And when you get the slightest inkling to detach in fear, I hope you remember to move with trust and love.