I used to try to swim against the current.
In my mind, I had to at least attempt to swim past… right?
I take pride in the fact that I never give up.
That makes me strong. Resilient. A fighter.
But trying and giving my all was leading me to drown.
With each stroke, I found myself under water.
I would try to catch my breath as I mustered the courage to try yet again.
Frustration and disappointment would be an understatement.
I couldn’t comprehend why I was in the same exact position
no matter how hard I tried to swim through and weather the storm.
Each failed attempt was disheartening, but I still tried repeatedly.
My logic was this: With so much time spent,
what a shame it would be to have my efforts be for nothing.
So I continued to swim against the currents,
still baffled every single time I found myself drowning.
It took a while for me to learn from my mistakes.
Until one day, I decided to do something different – the unthinkable.
I was exhausted, hanging by a thread spiritually, and at my breaking point –
I decided to give up the fight and see where the waves take me.
My guard was still up, ready to start aggressively swimming
the moment I felt things were going south.
But I decided to trust the waves…
Maybe they were trying to tell me something this whole time.
I took a deep breath, and let the current take me wherever I had to go.
I didn’t resist or panic, but I was afraid.
Still, I decided to trust the process and surrender to what was.
The waves continued to crash down on me.
I feared that I made a huge mistake, but I resisted the urge to swim.
I started to ride the waves instead of trying to go against them.
I took each wave slowly, one by one, until I was in calmer waters.
After a while, I saw that I was being led to a beautiful place.
I found myself in the eye of the storm.
Now I understand what it means to weather a storm within myself.
Like the waves, everything comes and goes as it should.
Ride the waves instead of resisting them.
You’ll be surprised to see that you are floating.
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