Note To Self: Believe

For when you’re feeling pessimistic:

No matter how hard life can get, I hope you never stop believing. Believing that good things will happen, miracles are real, and speaking it into existence works. You attract and manifest what you believe – don’t ever count yourself out of your own blessings. You are deserving of all good things that have yet to come your way. There is no such thing as “too good to be true.” All of it can happen.

You know firsthand how the universe will give you everything you’ve ever wanted and more in due time. Your dreams are as big as you make them. Speak on them as if they are already yours. Be so confident in your belief that everything works out for you and you’ll always win in the end – because you will. What you water will grow, so focus on the endless possibilities where you get everything you’ve prayed for. Not on some materialistic shit, because you know that’s not where your happiness lies.

You have always been a dreamer. I hope you’ll always find a way back to believing in something bigger and truly believing that it will happen for you. And when it happens, I hope you know that you deserve it, all of it.

Note to self – Never stop believing. You deserve it all.

Note To Self: You v. You

For when you feel like you’re falling behind:

Everyone is running their own race. It’s useless to get sidetracked with what others are doing when their journey is not yours. There is no competition. YOU are your biggest competition.

You get in the way of your own success when you distract yourself with timelines. Fuck the outside noise. This race is all mental – your mindset can delay your blessings, or bring you closer to them. Don’t focus on what you haven’t achieved, don’t have, or have yet to figure out, the lack mentality will have you comparing your successes to others for validation. And what does that achieve?

You mentally win when you remember that someone else’s success does not impede your own. Continue to be genuinely happy for others when they’re joyful and winning. Stay in your own lane and clap for others when it’s their time. We are all running different races, what works for one will not work for all.

Since this is YOUR race, only YOU can win it. And you’ll always win because you move with love and your heart and intentions are pure. You don’t see competition because there is no competition. When your eyes are set on your own track, there’s no room for distractions. You can’t lose a race that’s meant for just you. You know you can’t miss what’s meant to be yours. Keep going.

Note to self – There is no competition. It will always be You v. You.

Note To Self : Imperfect

For when you’re upset that things aren’t going how you’ve planned:

Look at how far you’ve come. You used to be so hung up on things having to be exactly how you planned it out to be. And if the timing or circumstances weren’t perfect, you’d wait. This way of thinking always had you believing that happiness was at the next achievement, the next paycheck, or the next chapter in your life. That mentality delayed your happiness.

Now you know there is never going to be the “perfect time” to be happy or get the ball rolling on what you want. You’ve cracked the code: happiness is in the present moment … if you choose to see it. And the perfect time to do and want better will always be in the now.

Because YOU are not perfect either. And it’s okay to change your mind, to pivot your life’s direction, to set new goals. You’re forever learning and unlearning, and because of that, you are forever making decisions on how to move next. Life is not perfect. Trust your gut and be patient with yourself and others. Realize that others are not perfect either, but our imperfect imperfections are what makes us, us.

Note to self – There’s no such thing as perfect. If you wait for everything to go as planned, you’ll be waiting forever.

2 Sides Of The Same Coin

The irony of our experiences –

I know happiness because I’ve experienced sadness.

I know peace because I’m no stranger to chaos.

I know hope because of the times I’ve felt hopeless.

I know love because I’ve sat with hate.

I know beautiful beginnings because I’ve lived through terrible endings.

I know clarity because of all the times I’ve marinated in confusion.

I know loyalty because I’ve had more than my fair share of betrayal.

I know that without darkness, there is no light.

Make It Make Sense

“Make it make sense,” the world told her at a young age.

So, she tried her whole life to make sure it always made sense… for other people.

She meticulously tried to justify all of it: her choices, her path, her reasoning…

Uphold the image, even if it was at her expense.

But her intuition, gut feelings, and inner knowing can not be explained.

You either get it, or you don’t.

She realized her choices didn’t have to make sense to anyone else except herself.

Every move is still calculated, but with her heart and happiness as the priority.

And to me, that will always make sense.

This Is Personal

Post 4 of 10 of LoveYourzStory’s Jhené Aiko Series. Inspired by “Lotus – Intro.”

This transformation is personal. But don’t get it twisted –

I have nothing to prove to anyone, but everything to prove to myself.

My happiness acts as the biggest apology that I owe myself.

They say good girls finish last, but I beg to differ.

Pure hearts, pure intentions, and love is still where it’s at.

I refuse to water a dead plant, so I chose to water myself instead.

A flower blooms on its own time, and now it’s my season.

She’s motivated by the woman she once was.

So yes, it’s very personal – she chose herself.

This blooming garden is for me – I’m sorry it took so long.

The Hermit

Detached trying to find the meaning of life is when I reconnected with myself.

A reunion that could only take place in complete solitude.

To know what your heart truly desires, you must first know who you are as an individual.

So, I chose to fall in love with the silence.

I chose to look within rather than out.

I chose to be selective with my time.

I gave myself the freedom to reevaluate and question everything.

The greatest revelation: being alone does not mean lonely.

I found that the company of myself is the most peaceful solace I know.

Perspective

What you choose to focus on becomes your reality.

Flip the switch and see how fast things change.

I have everything I need, and everything I want is en route.

What’s for me will never pass me.

Trust in the “not now,” “not this,” or just flat out, “no.”

My cup is always full, even when it is half empty.

Not everything deserves a reaction, I can only control my own actions.

The love I give will always make its way back to me.

Happiness is a choice, and I’m choosing it.

2023

Dear 2023,

Hands down, you were the best year yet.

I would’ve never thought this year would play out the way it did, but damn am I grateful for it all.

You were full of surprises.

You proved to me that the answers to most of my problems could be found within.

You opened my eyes to see that happiness is a choice, and it’s all about perspective.

You told me to trust my intuition, and damn did it restore my trust in divine timing.

You reminded me that the opinion I have of myself is all that matters.

You encouraged me to take advantage of everything life has to offer, for I’m only this young once.

You forced me to stop watering what is dead.

You gave me a glimpse of what I can be if I continue to work on myself.

But most importantly, you brought me back to me.

2023, you will forever be the year I decided to choose myself.

Weekend Mindset

I used to force myself to the finish line of every week.

Weekdays were simply days I just had to do.

So life would pause.

My life resumed on the weekends.

What I found was obvious.

You can’t pause life.

Don’t waste your days waiting for the weekend.

Sprinkle in things that bring you joy every day.

What a waste it would be to only live 2 days out of the week.

Live every day.