Note To Self: Trust Yourself

For when you’re doubting your intuition:

You’ve always learned the hard way why you should never ignore your gut feeling. It doesn’t matter if your intuition doesn’t make any sense to anyone else. If it’s not a yes, it’s a no. If it has to be forced, it’s a no. If the feeling is even slightly off, it’s a no. Your intuition is your protection. Trust it.

Know the difference between listening to your gut feeling and just being scared / anxious. Those are 2 completely different feelings – one is your body’s initial reaction to a situation, while the other is governed by fear of the unknown. But I know you can distinguish the difference between the two, this is your reminder.

But most importantly, trust yourself. Trust that you can read each situation and make the best choice for yourself. You know yourself more than anyone else, you don’t have to explain or justify your decisions. If it makes sense to you, that’s all that matters. You’re strong enough to block out the opinions and noise of others. Stop doubting yourself, you know what you want.

Note to self – trust your intuition.

Note To Self: It Will Always Work Out

For when you’re feeling anxious:

You should know by now that things will always work out for you. Don’t overthink it – it will all pan out the way it’s supposed to, and sometimes even better than what you could’ve imagined. Why are you so caught up on the what if’s? Stop projecting negativity and doubt into your plans. Trust that you will never miss out on what’s yours.

The journey will never go as planned, so be patient with it. Let go of the desire to control. Be brave enough to take chances – things fall apart to fall back into place. Trust the process. What’s meant to be yours does not have to be forced. If it’s for you, it will never miss you.

You always do this – stress every possible scenario… and for what? As long as your heart and intentions stay pure, you’ll always win in the end. No matter what, you will always be okay.

Note to self – Stop overthinking. It will always work out.

Note To Self : Imperfect

For when you’re upset that things aren’t going how you’ve planned:

Look at how far you’ve come. You used to be so hung up on things having to be exactly how you planned it out to be. And if the timing or circumstances weren’t perfect, you’d wait. This way of thinking always had you believing that happiness was at the next achievement, the next paycheck, or the next chapter in your life. That mentality delayed your happiness.

Now you know there is never going to be the “perfect time” to be happy or get the ball rolling on what you want. You’ve cracked the code: happiness is in the present moment … if you choose to see it. And the perfect time to do and want better will always be in the now.

Because YOU are not perfect either. And it’s okay to change your mind, to pivot your life’s direction, to set new goals. You’re forever learning and unlearning, and because of that, you are forever making decisions on how to move next. Life is not perfect. Trust your gut and be patient with yourself and others. Realize that others are not perfect either, but our imperfect imperfections are what makes us, us.

Note to self – There’s no such thing as perfect. If you wait for everything to go as planned, you’ll be waiting forever.

Free Fall

At a time in my life where I’m not resisting the fall…

Here’s to falling in love – releasing fear to make room for good things.

Cheers to falling apart – it’s revealing parts of me that still need work.

Thankful when things fall into place – I don’t need to force shit.

Content with every fall off – I keep my circle small.

Protected when things fall through – it wasn’t meant for me.

Fortunate when things fall into my lap – it was mine all along.

I’m willing to free fall into any situation – I trust myself to do so.

Little Miss Self-Sabotage

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Note to self –

There will come a day where you meet the reason why you never settled.

When that day comes, I pray you have the self-awareness to realize when you’re starting to run.

I pray you have the discernment to know the difference between a gut feeling and the natural instinct to self-sabotage when things are great.

I hurt a little inside knowing that you are weary of good things because it is so foreign to you.

But embrace what is being presented to you – don’t run from things that seem too good to be true.

You deserve the world, let the world give it to you.

And when you get the slightest inkling to detach in fear, I hope you remember to move with trust and love.

No Accidents

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I am exactly where I’m supposed to be.

Everything is calculated down to each second.

There’s no such thing as right place, wrong time.

Believe that some things were just never meant to happen.

I’m a firm believer that there are no accidents.

Each moment is strung together for a bigger purpose.

If everything is meant to be, there is no such thing as wasted time.

I used to mourn lost time, wasted time, too much time.

But everything is connected, there are no coincidences.

You will never be too early or too late for what’s yours.

Right place. Right time. No wasted time.

I Am The Key

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Land’s End, San Francisco

I used to wait patiently in front of doors to open.

I didn’t mind the wait if it was a door I wanted… or thought I wanted.

But patience doesn’t last forever, for I am only human.

So, I would build up courage to cowardly knock on the door.

Silence. Access denied. So, I’d waited some more.

Patiently waiting always escalated.

From sheepishly attempting to open the door, to forcefully knocking and yelling, to shamelessly trying to trespass out of frustration.

If I want something, I give my all. I always find a way in.

But what I’ve found was this:

I can’t force myself into rooms that are not meant for me.

I should never have to force a door to open.

Closed doors are redirection, embrace it with open arms.

Sometimes the doors we want are closed for a reason.

Trust that there are always bigger and better possibilities than what we think we want.

I will always be able to walk through doors that are meant for me.

I am the key.

Lose Control

Finally, the white flag has been raised.

It’s time to surrender and humbly accept defeat.

The inner war is over.

Let go of the desire and need to control every outcome.

Relax. It’s okay to just let things be and stand still in the moment.

Overthinking, forcing, and trying to command every aspect of your life will ironically block what’s trying to make its way to you.

Don’t get in the way of yourself.

Let go of the obsessive need to control.

Trust that things are meant to play out the way they’re supposed to.

Perspective

What you choose to focus on becomes your reality.

Flip the switch and see how fast things change.

I have everything I need, and everything I want is en route.

What’s for me will never pass me.

Trust in the “not now,” “not this,” or just flat out, “no.”

My cup is always full, even when it is half empty.

Not everything deserves a reaction, I can only control my own actions.

The love I give will always make its way back to me.

Happiness is a choice, and I’m choosing it.

Ride The Waves

I used to try to swim against the current.

In my mind, I had to at least attempt to swim past… right?

I take pride in the fact that I never give up.

That makes me strong. Resilient. A fighter.

But trying and giving my all was leading me to drown.

With each stroke, I found myself under water.

I would try to catch my breath as I mustered the courage to try yet again.

Frustration and disappointment would be an understatement.

I couldn’t comprehend why I was in the same exact position

no matter how hard I tried to swim through and weather the storm.

Each failed attempt was disheartening, but I still tried repeatedly.

My logic was this: With so much time spent,

what a shame it would be to have my efforts be for nothing.

So I continued to swim against the currents,

still baffled every single time I found myself drowning.

It took a while for me to learn from my mistakes.

Until one day, I decided to do something different – the unthinkable.

I was exhausted, hanging by a thread spiritually, and at my breaking point –

I decided to give up the fight and see where the waves take me.

My guard was still up, ready to start aggressively swimming

the moment I felt things were going south.

But I decided to trust the waves…

Maybe they were trying to tell me something this whole time.

I took a deep breath, and let the current take me wherever I had to go.

I didn’t resist or panic, but I was afraid.

Still, I decided to trust the process and surrender to what was.

The waves continued to crash down on me.

I feared that I made a huge mistake, but I resisted the urge to swim.

I started to ride the waves instead of trying to go against them.

I took each wave slowly, one by one, until I was in calmer waters.

After a while, I saw that I was being led to a beautiful place.

I found myself in the eye of the storm.

Now I understand what it means to weather a storm within myself.

Like the waves, everything comes and goes as it should.

Ride the waves instead of resisting them.

You’ll be surprised to see that you are floating.