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Note To Self : Imperfect

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For when you’re upset that things aren’t going how you’ve planned:

Look at how far you’ve come. You used to be so hung up on things having to be exactly how you planned it out to be. And if the timing or circumstances weren’t perfect, you’d wait. This way of thinking always had you believing that happiness was at the next achievement, the next paycheck, or the next chapter in your life. That mentality delayed your happiness.

Now you know there is never going to be the “perfect time” to be happy or get the ball rolling on what you want. You’ve cracked the code: happiness is in the present moment … if you choose to see it. And the perfect time to do and want better will always be in the now.

Because YOU are not perfect either. And it’s okay to change your mind, to pivot your life’s direction, to set new goals. You’re forever learning and unlearning, and because of that, you are forever making decisions on how to move next. Life is not perfect. Trust your gut and be patient with yourself and others. Realize that others are not perfect either, but our imperfect imperfections are what makes us, us.

Note to self – There’s no such thing as perfect. If you wait for everything to go as planned, you’ll be waiting forever.

Lifetimes

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I have died and been reborn a thousand times in this lifetime alone.

This version of me surely will not be the last, I’m hopeful of it.

My hands still have scars from forcibly holding onto parts of me, beliefs, and situations that I clearly outgrew.

I laugh now remembering how terrified I was of the unknown – only to find out that everything will always be in favor of my highest good.

A thousand lives, a thousand versions of me, a thousand new beginnings – how lucky.

We are always evolving, renewing, and finding different parts of ourselves that need refining.

I will never be ashamed to say that I am forever a work in progress.

No perfection. No forcing. No overstaying my welcome.

What a privilege it is to witness and grow with others through their many transformations.

Because with so many lives we live in this 1 lifetime, what a shame it would be to always remain the same…

In The Stars

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Post 10 of 10 of LoveYourzStory’s Jhené Aiko Series. Inspired by “Promises.”

I’m deep in my Jhené Era. She’s def the top artist I’ve been listening to on repeat for at least the last 6 months. This series will be a showcase of how her music has inspired me throughout this journey – the journey back to self✨️

Blue skies. Plants. Birds. Butterflies.

The peaceful sound of waterfalls in the distance.

You’re surrounded by light and life.

Your wrinkle lines are visible as you start to smile.

I’m looking up at you, in awe that I have the privilege to meet with you in this dimension.

There are no words being shared, I start to wonder if you’re even aware that I’m here…

But I don’t care, I’m seeing you in your new element.

Time moves slowly here, there’s absolutely no rush.

Birds land on your shoulders, butterflies surround you, you’re intrigued by the plants.

I can watch you enjoy this present moment forever – And it seems like forever.

But then the sound rings…

How long has it been? … I know it’s time.

My stomach drops, my throat tightens up, my eyes swell with tears.

I hate goodbyes.

“Tatay, I have to go,” I tell you crying. “I won’t get to see you anymore.”

You brush it off and continue doing what you’re doing, all with a smile on your face.

I explain the severity of what’s happening – this is potentially goodbye forever.

We both have to go back, who knows if there will be another time – how can you be so calm?

“But look where I am, I’m so happy. It’s not goodbye, I’m everywhere.”

And I believe that whole heartedly, with every fiber of my being.

I take off the blind fold, I’m weeping.

How lucky was I to have seen a glimpse of your world.

I am reminded through constant signs, alignments, and blessings – you’re everywhere.

I understand now and truly believe it – there is no end.

Just In Case

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Post 6 of 10 of LoveYourzStory’s Jhené Aiko Series. Inspired by “Pretty Bird.”

I’m deep in my Jhené Era. She’s def the top artist I’ve been listening to on repeat for at least the last 6 months. This series will be a showcase of how her music has inspired me throughout this journey – the journey back to self✨️

I’ve been taught to always plan for rainy days – life is unpredictable.

Mentally exhaust all possibilities to prepare for the unexpected.

Life can’t pull a fast one on you if you’re 100 steps ahead.

I need to make sure that at the end of any possibility, I remain untouched, unbothered, victorious.

Some call it smart, others call it overthinking, I call it Me.

“Just in case,” I tell myself, creating an exit plan before I even enter – completely unaware that I’m speaking doubt into my reality.

But fuck that. I don’t want to be held prisoner to that way of thinking.

I want to shift my focus to just in case it all happens in my favor.

Just in case it goes even better than expected.

Just in case I get exactly what I wanted and then some.

Just in case you tend to forget too – It always works out.

Forced Transformation

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Post 2 of 10 of LoveYourzStory’s Jhené Aiko Series. Inspired by “Born Tired.”

I’m deep in my Jhené Era. She’s def the top artist I’ve been listening to on repeat for at least the last 6 months. This series will be a showcase of how her music has inspired me throughout this journey – the journey back to self✨️

Cherry Blossoms starting to bloom in San Francisco.

They say the universe will intervene if you remain stagnant.

But the cosmos are patient and understanding too – they always give us the free will to redeem ourselves.

Evolve or repeat – learn the lesson and grow, or repeat the same cycle in different forms until you get it right.

Avoid what needs to be done, and watch the universe pull the rug from right under you. Time’s up.

You have no business being in places, situations, and connections that don’t serve your highest good.

My Tower moments always came at the right time.

This was a forced transformation.

Thank you, universe, for giving me no choice but to get the ball rolling.

Nobody talks about how overwhelming and exhausting it is to be cracked open.

But once the light gets in, there really is no going back.

What a rewarding, yet chaotic, journey it has been so far.

I’m learning to not question what the universe has in store for me.

There are no accidents. Now, this is all by choice. I have to keep going.

Lose Control

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Finally, the white flag has been raised.

It’s time to surrender and humbly accept defeat.

The inner war is over.

Let go of the desire and need to control every outcome.

Relax. It’s okay to just let things be and stand still in the moment.

Overthinking, forcing, and trying to command every aspect of your life will ironically block what’s trying to make its way to you.

Don’t get in the way of yourself.

Let go of the obsessive need to control.

Trust that things are meant to play out the way they’re supposed to.

Words Are Spells

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The power of words are underrated.

Our words are spells we put out into the universe.

We speak things into existence without even realizing it.

Our words can protect our desires, or harm them.

Often, we unknowingly speak fear and doubt into our plans, and the universe follows our lead.

Claim your blessings confidently as if they have already happened.

Speak it into existence and watch it work in your favor.

Never forget how powerful your words are.

Perspective

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What you choose to focus on becomes your reality.

Flip the switch and see how fast things change.

I have everything I need, and everything I want is en route.

What’s for me will never pass me.

Trust in the “not now,” “not this,” or just flat out, “no.”

My cup is always full, even when it is half empty.

Not everything deserves a reaction, I can only control my own actions.

The love I give will always make its way back to me.

Happiness is a choice, and I’m choosing it.

2023

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Dear 2023,

Hands down, you were the best year yet.

I would’ve never thought this year would play out the way it did, but damn am I grateful for it all.

You were full of surprises.

You proved to me that the answers to most of my problems could be found within.

You opened my eyes to see that happiness is a choice, and it’s all about perspective.

You told me to trust my intuition, and damn did it restore my trust in divine timing.

You reminded me that the opinion I have of myself is all that matters.

You encouraged me to take advantage of everything life has to offer, for I’m only this young once.

You forced me to stop watering what is dead.

You gave me a glimpse of what I can be if I continue to work on myself.

But most importantly, you brought me back to me.

2023, you will forever be the year I decided to choose myself.

Blank Pages

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There’s something so satisfying about new stationery.

The blank crisp pages are just waiting to be written on.

And we are the writers – in complete control of our own destiny.

If only you knew the journey it took to actually live by that.

I pick up my pen, excited to have the free will to write my own story.

For the first time ever, the lack of a step-by-step plan doesn’t scare me.

How liberating it is to know that life can be whatever I want it to be.

The new plan is to not force a plan.

It is written only because I decided to write it.