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Note to Self: Love Yourz

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For when you forget how far you’ve come:

You’ve upkept this blog for the last 5 and a half years to give yourself a writing outlet when the post-grad blues were hitting. You didn’t know where it would take you, or how long you’d keep it running, but you knew you had to start somewhere. You have had the privilege of telling your story, and the stories of countless others.

At times you felt conflicted about being so publicly vulnerable, for you keep to yourself, very intentional about keeping your circle small. But you went with your gut feeling and ran with it. This blog has evolved and changed with you as you went through the many stages of life. You’ve documented your grief, heartbreak, happiness, growth, the parts of you that still need healing, and everything in-between. The last 5.5 years of writing has taught you many things, and this is what you’re taking away as you start your next journey –

You are allowed to change your mind. This is your life, act like it. Nobody has to agree with your decisions, as long as it makes sense to you. People pleasing will get you nowhere. If you’re living your life with others in mind, you won’t be living for yourself. You’ll look back and think what you could’ve done differently had you chose yourself and what you wanted. So leave no stone unturned. You’ve always done things on your own time, you have to live and learn for yourself.

And if at any point you continue down a path that you realize is not what you want anymore – it’s okay to pivot. It’s okay to change directions. It’s okay to be wrong. It’s okay to start over. And you have had to click the restart button many times before. Don’t let starting over be the reason why you overstay your welcome. This is your life, you steer it in any direction you please.

No matter how fucked up life can get, your heart will remain untainted. Your biggest flex is your heart, your loyalty, the love you pour into others. You move with pure intentions, so believe me when I say – you will always win. Even when the journey gets tough and things seem to not work out in your favor, trust that you will get everything you want and deserve.

You will forever be a work in progress. Perfect doesn’t exist and growth is never linear. But you control your own narrative. You are truly 1 of 1. Own your past, present, and what is yet to come, because your journey is yours. Love yourz because you create the life you want to live. Make sure it’s what you want.

You don’t know what the next chapter will look like after you shut this down, but you know it’s time. Time to explore different creative outlets, time to pour into other things, time for change. Wore my heart on my sleeve for the past 5.5 years and allowed myself to be vulnerable and real. Thank you to everyone who has been along for the ride.

Note To Self – Love Yourz.

Note To Self: Believe

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For when you’re feeling pessimistic:

No matter how hard life can get, I hope you never stop believing. Believing that good things will happen, miracles are real, and speaking it into existence works. You attract and manifest what you believe – don’t ever count yourself out of your own blessings. You are deserving of all good things that have yet to come your way. There is no such thing as “too good to be true.” All of it can happen.

You know firsthand how the universe will give you everything you’ve ever wanted and more in due time. Your dreams are as big as you make them. Speak on them as if they are already yours. Be so confident in your belief that everything works out for you and you’ll always win in the end – because you will. What you water will grow, so focus on the endless possibilities where you get everything you’ve prayed for. Not on some materialistic shit, because you know that’s not where your happiness lies.

You have always been a dreamer. I hope you’ll always find a way back to believing in something bigger and truly believing that it will happen for you. And when it happens, I hope you know that you deserve it, all of it.

Note to self – Never stop believing. You deserve it all.

Note To Self: Never Linear

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For when you feel like you’re going backwards –

It’s discouraging as fuck to feel like you had it all figured out at one point in time, only to find yourself repeating patterns that you thought you’ve outgrown. Defeated. You’re better than this though, and I know you know it. Shift the lens. Instead of seeing it as regression, take note of what still needs your attention, it’s resurfacing for a reason. Those triggers are the seeds that still need watering. You’ve worked so hard and seen so much progress, but you’re also still learning. Your efforts are not wasted. Be patient. 3 steps back can catapult you 10 feet forward.

Note to self: Healing is never linear. Learn and just keep going.

Note to Self: Gray

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️1 of 10. LoveYourzStory’s “Note To Self Series” – The Last Series. ️

You read that riiighttt. It has been my pleasure to share my journey & yours for the last 5+ years. I’ve connected with so many people in my community and around the world (not even exaggerating), and I would like to give the biggest THANK YOU to anyone who has ever read, shared, reached out, been a part of one of my series, or has cheered me on loudly or privately – thank you. This is definitely not the end, but I feel it in my bones that it’s time to shift gears and take my writing down another route. Until then, please enjoy the 10 lessons I’ll take with me – let’s get to #250…

 

What a summer, what a summer it has been…

Took a little break and thought it would just be for a min.

Life will take a sharp left and suddenly your whole world will shake.

I had to listen to every sign that was begging me to take a break.

I swore I thought I knew what it meant to be stuck in limbo…

But I was never in the house, just always looking in from the window. 

Not in the black, not in the white, I found myself in the in between…

Can I open my eyes now? Please tell me this was all a bad dream.

Now I truly know what it means to be stuck in the gray.

No right, no wrong, it all can go either way.

The “gray area” has a new meaning to me now…

Still trying to process this, but I still don’t know how.

The root for everything will always be love… but what more can I say?

Marinelle, you’ll never forget when you found yourself in the gray…

Plead The Fifth

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Time has taught me the beauty of letting people believe what they want.

You don’t always have to explain your choices, life decisions, or opinions.

There’s no need to set the record straight, to defend, to clarify –

For what? Stand firmly in your truth.

Not everything has to be shared or be made public knowledge.

It’s ok to bask in your privacy – What does it really mean to be seen?

Having access to someone’s life and true thoughts is a privilege.

There are 3 sides to every story, and not everyone will have access to mine.

People will always have their point of view on you – But what’s there to prove?

Someone else’s opinion does not define your character.

Live your life – Some things don’t deserve your explanation.

Free Fall

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At a time in my life where I’m not resisting the fall…

Here’s to falling in love – releasing fear to make room for good things.

Cheers to falling apart – it’s revealing parts of me that still need work.

Thankful when things fall into place – I don’t need to force shit.

Content with every fall off – I keep my circle small.

Protected when things fall through – it wasn’t meant for me.

Fortunate when things fall into my lap – it was mine all along.

I’m willing to free fall into any situation – I trust myself to do so.

Greener

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In my eyes, my grass will always be greener.

That may not always be true, but I’ll never really know.

You see, I only tend to my own garden.

What others are planting is none of my concern.

I water what’s mine, I weed out what’s dead, I plant more seeds.

I know that my garden will bloom when it’s supposed to –

Keeping track of others will not benefit my flowers.

When the time is right, I will handpick my bouquet –

Knowing they blossomed because I chose to focus only on mine.

What you choose to water, will grow.

Believe It

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There is no such thing as “too good to be true.”

Ever stopped and wondered why you think it can’t happen to you?

It’s easy to fall into lack mentality and have yourself stressing.

But that way of thinking will ironically block your blessing.

Law of attraction – I call in what I know I deserve.

I really manifested it all – Yes, I truly got the nerve.

Because why count myself out of exactly what I want and more?

Don’t ever be discouraged to be met with a closed door.

Trust that it just means there’s so much more for you in store.

Speak, write, and think it all into existence.

You’ll be surprised how much things change with your persistence.

I’ll never again believe that it all can’t happen to me –

Because if I can think it, I can have it, and that’s the fuckin’ tea.

2 Sides Of The Same Coin

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The irony of our experiences –

I know happiness because I’ve experienced sadness.

I know peace because I’m no stranger to chaos.

I know hope because of the times I’ve felt hopeless.

I know love because I’ve sat with hate.

I know beautiful beginnings because I’ve lived through terrible endings.

I know clarity because of all the times I’ve marinated in confusion.

I know loyalty because I’ve had more than my fair share of betrayal.

I know that without darkness, there is no light.

Make It Make Sense

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“Make it make sense,” the world told her at a young age.

So, she tried her whole life to make sure it always made sense… for other people.

She meticulously tried to justify all of it: her choices, her path, her reasoning…

Uphold the image, even if it was at her expense.

But her intuition, gut feelings, and inner knowing can not be explained.

You either get it, or you don’t.

She realized her choices didn’t have to make sense to anyone else except herself.

Every move is still calculated, but with her heart and happiness as the priority.

And to me, that will always make sense.