Tag: poetry

Blank Pages

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There’s something so satisfying about new stationery.

The blank crisp pages are just waiting to be written on.

And we are the writers – in complete control of our own destiny.

If only you knew the journey it took to actually live by that.

I pick up my pen, excited to have the free will to write my own story.

For the first time ever, the lack of a step-by-step plan doesn’t scare me.

How liberating it is to know that life can be whatever I want it to be.

The new plan is to not force a plan.

It is written only because I decided to write it.

Write It Out

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Trigger fingers in full effect.

Going 100 words per second.

Not sugarcoating shit.

Not to be posted.

Not to be shared.

Not for your eyes.

I write because I want answers.

Answers from myself.

I’ve found that they don’t always reveal

themselves straight out the gate.

When I read through my unfiltered writing and thoughts,

I take a journey through my own mind.

I see how my mind works.

What I’m hung up on.

Why I still feel the need to write about it.

What needs my attention.

My advice is this:

When in doubt, write it out.

I hope you find the answers you’re looking for.

Answered

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Note to self –

You are living what you once prayed for

at this exact moment in your life.

You can get so caught up on the next thing

that you forget you’re currently living a prayer.

Stand still for a moment and take it in.

That peace you used to beg the universe for?

The desire to better your life?

The inner happiness you hoped for?

The natural gratitude for all you have?

The “hopefully one day” wish your heart dreamed of?

That day is here. It’s right now.

How beautiful it is to live an answered prayer.

Ride The Waves

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I used to try to swim against the current.

In my mind, I had to at least attempt to swim past… right?

I take pride in the fact that I never give up.

That makes me strong. Resilient. A fighter.

But trying and giving my all was leading me to drown.

With each stroke, I found myself under water.

I would try to catch my breath as I mustered the courage to try yet again.

Frustration and disappointment would be an understatement.

I couldn’t comprehend why I was in the same exact position

no matter how hard I tried to swim through and weather the storm.

Each failed attempt was disheartening, but I still tried repeatedly.

My logic was this: With so much time spent,

what a shame it would be to have my efforts be for nothing.

So I continued to swim against the currents,

still baffled every single time I found myself drowning.

It took a while for me to learn from my mistakes.

Until one day, I decided to do something different – the unthinkable.

I was exhausted, hanging by a thread spiritually, and at my breaking point –

I decided to give up the fight and see where the waves take me.

My guard was still up, ready to start aggressively swimming

the moment I felt things were going south.

But I decided to trust the waves…

Maybe they were trying to tell me something this whole time.

I took a deep breath, and let the current take me wherever I had to go.

I didn’t resist or panic, but I was afraid.

Still, I decided to trust the process and surrender to what was.

The waves continued to crash down on me.

I feared that I made a huge mistake, but I resisted the urge to swim.

I started to ride the waves instead of trying to go against them.

I took each wave slowly, one by one, until I was in calmer waters.

After a while, I saw that I was being led to a beautiful place.

I found myself in the eye of the storm.

Now I understand what it means to weather a storm within myself.

Like the waves, everything comes and goes as it should.

Ride the waves instead of resisting them.

You’ll be surprised to see that you are floating.

My Garden

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A beautiful garden takes time and dedication.

You just don’t hope for a garden to appear –

you strategically plan for what it will be.

For you are not only prepping for the flowers themselves,

but the entire environment for where they will grow.

You can’t expect a full garden to thrive

when you haven’t even considered the necessities:

space, water, light, nutrients, and temperature.

When the basic needs are nurtured and cared for,

only then can you go above and beyond the ordinary.

My garden started off empty, but what

kept me consistent was the idea of what it could be.

I knew if I kept caring for my garden,

eventually the fruits of my labor would appear.

I hand-picked the seeds I wanted to grow.

I focused in on what I needed to improve.

I started to water myself, nurturing my soul.

Now, my garden is starting to bloom in full effect.

The seeds that I have planted many seasons ago

are finally starting to blossom.

I never thought my garden would be possible…

But here I am, surrounded by so many flowers.

My garden is full and forever blossoming.

Turning The Page

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I can feel a shift in the air.

My heart and mind are open.

I feel like a new chapter is ahead of me.

I can’t quite put my finger on it,

but I know good change is on the horizon.

It’s been a while, but I love that gut feeling –

my intuition knows blessings are approaching.

And damn do I deserve all the good things coming my way.

I wake up every day excited for the unknown and what’s to come.

May the chapters get better and better as my story continues.

Finally, a page has been turned.

What’s For You

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I’m a true believer in divine timing.

As cliché as it sounds:

What’s for me will never pass me.

And if it passes me, it wasn’t meant to be.

What’s mine will never have to be forced.

So, what a waste of time it would be to wallow in

anger over things that were never for me to begin with.

What is meant for me, will always be mine.

Even if I miss it at a wrong turn,

fate will bring it back time and time again.

Let situations come and pass as they do.

It’s easy to get hung up on the why and try to force fate.

But everything happens for a reason.

Don’t question the divine timing.

What enters your life is meant to enter.

And what exits your life is meant to exit.

What is meant for you will always be yours.

The Journey Back To Me

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Who am I?

Had you asked me this 6 months ago,

I would’ve answered it very confidently.

It was a question I thought I had figured out.

And at such a young age?

It was truly my biggest flex.

I thought I knew myself to the core,

and that may have been true at the time.

It’s true that we learn more about ourselves

when our values and beliefs are tested.

I thought I had solved all of life’s questions,

but ya girl couldn’t have been more wrong.

I’ve learned that our answers to different

questions will vary throughout our lives.

So now, I’m at a crossroads once again,

trying to find the answers to all of these questions:

What makes me angry? And how do I deal with anger?

What brings me happiness? And how do I express it?

What are my passions and dreams? And how will I achieve them?

What do I really believe in? And why?

What are my deal breakers? And why are they deal breakers?

What is really important to me in this life? And do I show it?

What will I not compromise on? And why are they so important to me?

What is my purpose in life? And will I ever know?

What makes me, me? And am I happy with who I am?

But more importantly…

Who am I when I’m completely alone?

It’s the journey back to me.

A journey I knew I had to take,

but was too scared to start.

I’ve veered off track too many times,

but I’m more than ready now.

However, I don’t know where the actual destination is.

Maybe I have never been there before.

In these 28 years of life, I have trekked on.

The detours of life will always change,

but the goal will always be the same:

Who am I? The real me.

That’s a question we have to answer for the rest of our lives.

And the answer is forever changing.

The journey back to me is a little confusing,

but damn is it rewarding.

There is no end destination.

I’ve missed me. But I’m a new me.

I excited to meet this version of her.

Always Winning

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One door closes, a thousand more open.

The end of something means the

beginning of so many other possibilities.

Regardless of any and all circumstances,

I am always winning.

I’m in competition with no one and nothing.

It is and always will be: Me vs. Me.

And either way, I am always the winner.

There will be losses and disappointments,

but I’ve learned that the universe has

a funny way of phasing out what’s not for you.

You can’t lose at your own journey.

You are always winning.

Remind Me

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Note to self when I don’t feel like myself:

Bring me back down to Earth,

I’m in my head again.

Remind me to speak kindly to myself.

Remind me of my values.

Remind me that I am worthy.

Remind me of my heart of gold.

Remind me to go easy on myself.

Remind me that I can’t change the past,

so I should just focus on becoming a better me.

Remind me that I’m so much more than my outward appearance.

Remind me of all the things that make me, me.

Remind me that this disoriented feeling is temporary.

Remind me who the fuck I am when I’m lost in my head.